The voices that I hear Going in…

I before Going to , happy ecutives in a fluffy blanket, waiting for the sweet moment of sleep, but suddenly cautious, but insistent voice is unknown to me who starts to say something directly into his ear, the Voice is always male and only one female words cannot Express my condition, this fear and panic and all like First it was a single word or set of syllables, do not know, but their meaning was incomprehensible to me Then whole sentences To these voices, I to get used to, but fear of these voices were not Thought to write and tried to read back, but nothing worked From the beginning in everything that is happening to me, dedicated to my husband I’m a grown adequate? In my opinion and the opinion of others , I am 36 years old Trying to be objective, I to see a doctor, suddenly I have the initial stage of SHIZA the Result given that I was NORMAL the Doctor even laughed at me that was crazy at the reception they do not come, and certainly do not claim that they are “going crazy” tired of it all, from sleepless nights, one day, going to , to be left alone and not believe left, for almost a ! All this time I often thought about it, talked to the dedicated people, I say different, but there came a moment of awareness of something I do not understand how and where it came from, but I felt that I was “READY” AND the same told me – “TAKE the PEN” Now I me down with paper and pen it took about a month to say that the fear, no, every time you shudder and tense up, but recently, the voices began to warn me about some kind of loss for the First time a woman’s voice said – “You will cry” I was terrified!!! And I was going on a trip for her son to grandparents was Afraid, what if something happens to them, but the trouble was waiting for me at home! I called my husband and said something is going on with my favorite dog, which was just a delight to my soul, little Spitz Came home, told my husband about the strange events that at home Coming from work, saw a cornered dog, trembling with fear, the inverted dryer does not have a window, and in the middle of the room, and without underwear it would be Possible to assume that someone came in our absence, but the three of us: husband, me and our young son, And two sets of keys: I have him And sitting at the computer, in the output, I heard a terrible, long-lasting yelping dogs Ran into the room, saw that dog again in the corner, sitting on its hind legs and from something to brush off legs, trembling, with startled eyes He was coming to her and she looks at him over it was creepy, I immediately came home And 4 days later again came the voice: “the dog dies”!!! And indeed, SHE DIED!!! It was 5 days ago Now I am in an indescribable condition!!! I fear I Write out of despair, I don’t know what to do, what to think and how to live with it By the doctor, the dog died of a heart attack


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