I am me In 2005…

I am me In 2005, I waiting for their first child And the closer the birth was, the more I was overcome by an incredible fear And I have a child with a good intuition, and I feel trouble But reassured me that all women are afraid the first time “It’s natural, you’re young,” – he reassured my mom the Doctors in one asserted the pelvis, by the book, everything will be fine Come the day of the birth of my son, Yes, indeed, in birth, I came alone, everything went by the book-But after seven hours of labor was clear: there will be an emergency C-section Before the operation, I had anesthesia, anesthesia contractions, which had never worked, the operation started quickly, and the anesthesiologist me more anesthesia, but when touched with a scalpel in my belly, I felt through the incision came forth blood And at that moment I fell, everything was dark I heard the course of the operation, medical terminology and the of his own pulse tried to open my eyes, I turned sideways and fell, he opened his eyes Standing behind the medical team and see themselves on the operating table, I was overcome with such fear you See yourselves, and he at this moment do not belong to yourself This nonsense led me to dread Trying to say something to the doctors, I understand that my second “I” no voice No voice or I don’t know how to speak? But I stand on the floor barefoot and feel the cold floor tiles scary, Scary, I’m scared, I don’t know what to do! Just stand and look at yourself? The darkness I’m cold too Cold, ice a very sore throat, I open my eyes, twilight From the Windows of the corridor falls yellow light I’m an intensive care Nurse bustles and puts a few shots And says: – Well, you all the heat, four hours, two brigades fought for you – Who I was born? almost whispering I asked the Boy a of happiness and joy overwhelmed me, tears rolled Tears at the thought That I am I’m here now and I need his son eleven have Passed, and I it like yesterday I lost my temper And all this time I do not understand the Output I from my body – it was the soul or should I? I felt the cold floor of the operating room that can think and feel fear Or is it the action of a huge number of anesthesia?


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