I am me In 2005…

I am me In 2005, I waiting for their first child And the closer the birth was, the more I was overcome by an incredible fear And I have a child with a good intuition, and I feel trouble But reassured me that all women are afraid the first time “It’s natural, you’re young,” – he reassured my mom the Doctors in one asserted the pelvis, by the book, everything will be fine Come the day of the birth of my son, Yes, indeed, in birth, I came alone, everything went by the book-But after seven hours of labor was clear: there will be an emergency C-section Before the operation, I had anesthesia, anesthesia contractions, which had never worked, the operation started quickly, and the anesthesiologist me more anesthesia, but when touched with a scalpel in my belly, I felt through the incision came forth blood And at that moment I fell, everything was dark I heard the course of the operation, medical terminology and the of his own pulse tried to open my eyes, I turned sideways and fell, he opened his eyes Standing behind the medical team and see themselves on the operating table, I was overcome with such fear you See yourselves, and he at this moment do not belong to yourself This nonsense led me to dread Trying to say something to the doctors, I understand that my second “I” no voice No voice or I don’t know how to speak? But I stand on the floor barefoot and feel the cold floor tiles scary, Scary, I’m scared, I don’t know what to do! Just stand and look at yourself? The darkness I’m cold too Cold, ice a very sore throat, I open my eyes, twilight From the Windows of the corridor falls yellow light I’m an intensive care Nurse bustles and puts a few shots And says: – Well, girl you all the heat, four hours, two brigades fought for you – Who I was born? almost whispering I asked the Boy a of happiness and joy overwhelmed me, tears rolled Tears at the thought That I am I’m here now and I need his son eleven have Passed, and I remember it like yesterday I lost my temper And all this time I do not understand the Output I from my body – it was the soul or should I? I felt the cold floor of the operating room that can and feel fear Or is it the action of a huge number of anesthesia?


People out of the darkness my…

People from the darkness of my girlfriend at the time lived in an old three-storey hostel corridor type even the Stalinist buildings in General, the 53rd and 54th years have been fruitful for architecture in the city — I think the whole Central part in those two years was built I remember that night it […]


Famous composer Sun had gilded the tops of the Alps…

Famous composer Sun had gilded the tops of the Alps and together with the new day started the moment that I was preparing for 8 years the Day when the jury glasses on his nose and solemnly give to my piano and say, can I see the whole world will Talk a little bit about […]


Under the bed – Mother, and who…

Under the bed – Mother, and who lives under the bed? What?! You don’t stay there darling, what are you doing? – Mama, please look under the bed and check – Mija, I want to sleep! No, really! No one there – have a Look! (crying) well, well, Well, don’t shed tears Looked there is […]


I do not believe Natasha! Lived girl Marina…

don’t believe Natasha! There lived a girl Marina (age 14) Lived a normal life like all went to school and so forth, but it was not Marina’s friends Well, one day she came to school and began to prepare for the lesson When the bell rang, the teacher presented the class with the new girl, […]


Mystical coincidences As a collector of mystical and…

Mystical coincidences As a collector of the mysterious and unexplained stories, I want to introduce to your court another it Happened with a relative of one of my friend let’s Call her M M was happily married With her husband they lived for 5 years But once the family started disorder Later comparing all the […]


Night in the kitchen In August 2008…

Night in the kitchen In August 2008 to us came to stay for a couple of weeks, the relatives Came with his entire extended family, and I had, as a hospitable hostess, to give her room to move and sleep on the sofa in the dining room the Dining room with a kitchen we built […]


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